28 August, 2005

Letter Unsent.

Dear You,
How have you been? How's the family? Are these formalities really neccessary? It feels like they are, because without them I doubt you and I would have much to say..anymore.

How's the family?Oh wait..I already asked you that.

It's odd that things should be this way..formal..cold..courteous..
We've never had a dearth of things to talk about, and now it feels like I'm grasping for straws. Conversations feel like eternity. Today was almost painful. This wasn't a problem before, remember?
How's the weather?
Oh God.
Now I'm grasping for straws, again.

I know we haven't talked in a while, but it's not supposed to be this hard...is it?
We've been through worse nonsense and even during those times, I always knew things would be fine. As sure as the sun was going to rise the next day, I knew things would be fine.

Then why am I so worried now.

People say that it could be PMS..it could be my imagination..it could be this and it could be that.
I'm tired of giving reasons and I'm tired of defending you and me.
So I just say in response "Yes..Maybe."
You know what's the best bit? I know there's only one person who'd have known me well enough to read between the lines.

You.


We both know I'm pig-headed and stupid enough to never say these things to you.
But if you know me the way I think you do, then you know how much I miss you.
I'm terribly scared of losing a friend like you, because the fact is, you're irreplaceable. You gladden my heart. Simple as that.


Let's hope I won't have to do this again.

Love,
Me.

17 Comments:

Anonymous tragicomix did the happy dance and finally said..

i really don't understand why this is up on a blog and not in a letter to whoever this is addressed to. don't let your ego, or romantic escapism (there is something very enchantng about putting it up on a blog) come in the way of your relationships..people are far more important than words..

11:14 AM  
Blogger Madame Mahima did the happy dance and finally said..

tragic - i put it up because i know at least this way, i know it will get read. at least this way, i wont..i CANT be chicken. i know sending a letter would be the right thing to do, but the truth doesn't always set you free. sad but true.

11:41 AM  
Blogger SoNyA did the happy dance and finally said..

whoever this is meant for babe... i'm sure they'll appreciate the honesty and probably have the same doubts you do... open channels of communication r always impt...n don't worry babe u can never REALLY lose a true friend, they just sometimes get temporarily misplaced ;)

3:06 PM  
Anonymous Rajesh did the happy dance and finally said..

I agree with Sonya, a true friend will never be lost...there are ties that bind that are deeper and more profound then most people realize...and for wat its worth, if i was this friend, I wuld sincerely appreciate the honesty and feelings expressed in this letter...

PS: Hows the abstinence from alcohol coming along? ;)

4:27 PM  
Anonymous tragicomix did the happy dance and finally said..

rk narayan once said-

the truth is like the sun, we can't live without it, but it is very difficult to look it straight in the eye..

5:22 PM  
Blogger Madame Mahima did the happy dance and finally said..

sonya - thanks babe *hug* the channel of communication is just a bit blocked i think..youre so right about the 'misplaced' bit..hence my msn nikname ;)

rajesh - thanks mate =) i think my friend will appreciate it too ( if my friend ever gets to read it...)
alcohol abstinence is coming along great! =) its been....its been long..but its getting easier!

tragic - very true! but just like the sun, you don't always have to see it, to feel it around you =)

7:57 PM  
Blogger FRZ did the happy dance and finally said..

ur still off alcohol? damn good...how many weeks has it been?

8:47 PM  
Blogger The Box did the happy dance and finally said..

It's very nice this.
It's also a sign you've been thinking deep, meaningful, significant thoughts and you know that never ends well.
Feel better babe.

10:10 PM  
Blogger Spot did the happy dance and finally said..

nice. don't worry chickadee, take it as a baby step. after you read it a couple more times you may just feel brave enough to send it to its intended.

11:17 PM  
Blogger Mint Chutney did the happy dance and finally said..

"You gladden my heart. Simple as that".

Wow...I would be honored and touched if anyone ever wrote that to me.

Go with your gut. I find that it's definitely more trustworthy than my heart

1:58 AM  
Blogger APOO did the happy dance and finally said..

Maybe we waited too long
Maybe both had same thoughts in our minds
Maybe you said the words I have been meaning to say to you
Maybe I cant say them till you come up to me and look me in the eye
Maybe.........

Blogs, letters and phone calls dont work the way in person talks do. To revive a friendship, it worth walking the distance, by yourself!

12:11 PM  
Blogger Madame Mahima did the happy dance and finally said..

faz - its been 3 weeks baby..still going strong! YEA! that'll teach u to make a bet with me :P

box - thanks box =) im feeling way better..and yea..thinking deep meaningful thoughts are so troubling..my brain hurts after!
i think things are well on their way to becoming better. =)

spot - thanks =D hows the background coming along?looks like i won't have to send any letter after all..'tis allll good!

mint - thanks minty *hug* gut more trustworthy than your heart? aren't the two supposed to be sorta connected?(well not figuratively of course heh heh) i think they are with me!

apoo - thank god the friendship wasn't flat-lining! it was just asleep for a while i think haha but yea..you're right (there's smthg i never thought i'd say!)nothing beats talking about it face-to-face

5:27 PM  
Anonymous Rajesh did the happy dance and finally said..

Glad thinks are working out babe!

N i've been off coffee too!...havent the faintest idea how long, bt its been quite long! so hang in there...

12:14 AM  
Blogger Webmiztris did the happy dance and finally said..

I have no idea who this is to, but you need to SEND it, girl!!

5:20 AM  
Blogger Madame Mahima did the happy dance and finally said..

rajesh - thanks mate =) be strong! (btw i had an amazing cup of mocha this morning..MmmM)

dawn - no worries babes =) *stamp* sorted!

5:39 PM  
Blogger IdeaSmith did the happy dance and finally said..

How about just sending this link to the person this was written for...just do it and worry later.

7:23 PM  
Blogger Madame Mahima did the happy dance and finally said..

smithy - smithy i can't do that for two reasons - 1) it would just serve to create more tension because 2)the issue has more or less been sorted (in a good way =))

7:57 PM  

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